start blogging back
wow , it's been months i didn't touch my blog . oh well who cares , no 1 will read my blog . Anyway it's good though , hehe i can write out bout anything n everything how i felt for these days .i don't no what happen to me now a days , i have been acting strangely . i didn't fell this way in a long time . so confuse and irritating . i also don't no which one I'm going to start .
ok , first of all , i fell like drinking n drunk = so tat i wont get hurt by some else but my self .. i rather hurt my self than other ppl hurting me ..
im happy tat my friends were there for me when i wan to .. sometimes they were busy i have to handle it my self . mom always nag me this n that , y ? i just wish she can shut up n leave me alone ! i dont no wat to do . I WAN SILENCE FOR A WHILE EVEN FOR 5 MINS !
second thing , my bf fren elsa [ i dont mind saying it's u ] , i dont no wat is she thinking ? am i over reacting ? she sticks to my bf and they were twice in the club , she come over to my bf n dance sexy dance ? y ? y not other single guys ? n guess wat ? RIGHT FUCKING IN FRONT OF ME ? ARE U FUCKING INSANE ! my bf refuse to dance with her .. watever la .. bitches it's like tat .. y call my bf dd , and she always like to spoil the moment when i wrote something to my bf ... she can call her beck khem [ his name ] i dont mind ... but y u have to call her DD ?? DD u call wan ? respect la im his gf .. if u wan him go a head i give up n leave la.. u wan ? only u happy ? seriously i treat u as a fren although we dont really noe tat well , come on .. yr a girl im a girl .. u should noe how i fell right now ..
dd , if u reading this . this is how i fell ... if u dont get it nvm .. i bet u will say wat u wan me to do ? i wish i can YAN for as long as i can .. but i cant .. i told u b4 , did she like u ?
i hate crying , i wan to be happy like last time .. trying to stop crying every single day .. i didnt beg u for anything , i did every thing i can to be happy with u ..
if u fell angry , i wrote this out bout yr fren , i get it , i noe wat is yr decision .... ending ..
i dont no weather u noe how much i love u ? dd always say dont think so much la? fren onli ? i wish u can do something n say something to her .. and explain .. i think u didnt i guess .. watever la ..
it so stupid to cry over such thing .. it's not worth it !
On Sunday, January 31, 2010 at 9:56 PM